I didn't expect to feel this way...

Over the past 5 weeks I've finally been able to do something that I've desperately missed since December 2019. Dance recitals have returned to our area and I was able to do photography for 4 local schools!!! Performance photography is one of my very favorite things to do, and so, understandably, I'd been feeling pretty down about the lack of them during the height of the pandemic.

I expected to feel lots of elation at returning to that place behind my lens in front of the stage, or in front of the backdrop in the dance studio. And I did feel that - a lot. I also felt a return of some pandemic sadness, in realizing how much was missed over the last 18 months. I felt some nervousness - wondering if it was possible if I had forgotten how to time my shots just right when photographing dances for which I didn't already know the choreography. I also felt a lot of pride - for the resiliency of all of these incredible students. Seeing their beaming faces in their costumes reminded me of what this is all about. Finding something we love, cherishing the process of nurturing that passion and growing relationships with others who share our enthusiasm are really what it's all about. Thinking about that and seeing these dancers return to performing brought me a feeling of deep satisfaction.

To everyone who's had to wait to do what they love, whether you had to wait a long time or a little, whether you waited impatiently or with quiet grace, I applaud you. I know how you've felt - all the feels.

Emily BrunnerJune 21, 2021Comment